There has not been a moment during our undergraduate life that we do not think about this day. The day when we start work, officially. Part time jobs and freelancing are not counted.
And yet, when the day has arrived finally for me, there seems to be this heavy feeling in my heart. Is it because I'm actually going to miss home?
It is not like this is the first time I am 'moving'. I have moved when I was 15 to Subang Jaya, at 22 to Seremban and at 24 to Batu Pahat. Interspersed in between are short period of times when I spent away from home like in Sarawak, Terengganu and etc.
But this time, I will be 'moving' to somewhere completely unexpected. It may be as far as Tawau to as close as Kuala Lumpur itself. Yet, I guess this prospect of not knowing where one is being sent off to grips and clutches the heart in fear.
Fear of not being able to settle down quick enough. And by quick, I mean in 24 hours or less. Because that is the amount of time we have.
Fear of being in a totally new environment and you have to start from scratch again. Making new friends, new bosses, new colleagues, new expectations, unfamiliar roads and plenty of other new things to be explored.
Well, I guess the day has finally come, hasn't it?
The day when I conquer this new fear and grow up.
And yet, when the day has arrived finally for me, there seems to be this heavy feeling in my heart. Is it because I'm actually going to miss home?
It is not like this is the first time I am 'moving'. I have moved when I was 15 to Subang Jaya, at 22 to Seremban and at 24 to Batu Pahat. Interspersed in between are short period of times when I spent away from home like in Sarawak, Terengganu and etc.
But this time, I will be 'moving' to somewhere completely unexpected. It may be as far as Tawau to as close as Kuala Lumpur itself. Yet, I guess this prospect of not knowing where one is being sent off to grips and clutches the heart in fear.
Fear of not being able to settle down quick enough. And by quick, I mean in 24 hours or less. Because that is the amount of time we have.
Fear of being in a totally new environment and you have to start from scratch again. Making new friends, new bosses, new colleagues, new expectations, unfamiliar roads and plenty of other new things to be explored.
Well, I guess the day has finally come, hasn't it?
The day when I conquer this new fear and grow up.
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